Monday, June 6, 2011

Take your own advice, or this advice!

My sister doesn't give herself enough credit for her genius mind. Often she says things to me that leave me thinking.. that right there.. its BRILLIANT. Here's a quoteworthy conversation on relationships.

ME: i've been thinking in tems of future alot as much as i'm trying to be in the present. i don't want a future with someone who i have to be the bearer of the responsibilities.. the planner.. the make shit happen-er
i want a partnership.. with someone who has drive, ambition, desire to have the best life we could possibly have
if i have to hear him say something to me like "you just gotta work harder" or "it will all workout" im going to stab  him in the gd face.
i think i see so much more in him than he sees in himself.

SISTER:  ha!
Yeah you can see all you want in him, but until he sees it in himself it won't matter.
I need to heed my own words. damn.You're having a chaotic moment that is necessary to push you toward change.
It's what's supposed to be happening right now.
Be excited. not regretful.
You're on your path, he's on his.

I'm where I should be.. and believe it or not, you are too.
You're where you are so that you can be where you will be.. we get caught up in dissatisfaction and discontentment, it's like a plague.


ME:  its got me feeling mad.. resentful..sad.. then i get over it and im cool.. then i go back to all that
SISTER:  mad, resentful, sad. because you're looking to someone from the outside to help create the life you want, when you should try to create it from the inside out.
AGAIN with my own advice. shoot.

The longing we have to have another person do what we need in order to be happy.. is actually a way for us to see what it is WE need to do for OURSELVES. It's the universes way of showing us.
for realz.

The hard thing is to have the courage to do it alone, and the faith that somehow we will learn to feel safe even if we are alone.and by alone I don't mean without another person around.. I mean not needing that person in order to do what you need to do.
not needing a partner in what you are doing. being solitary on your own path.


Then somehow the conversation takes a downfall to sluttiness and rubber boots. I'll spare you.

Say YES to the flow of life. The universe brings me right where I need to be. I choose how to feel about it.

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